Monday, March 28, 2011

A bit of Nostalgia

On the way home from dropping Mr. H off at the airport today I got lost in the radio discussion that was on. It was all about how different things are these days and everything that our kids won't get a chance to experience. Among these were things like arcades, Saturday afternoons spent at the mall, and a cell-phone-free world. It got me thinking of all the things that I consider the best parts of my childhood. I was surprised to realize that it makes me a bit sad to think of the things that Charlotte won't experience.

For instance one of my all time favorite things growing up was going to the Roller Rink. Every Saturday morning we would go to the skating rink. For a couple hours I wold get sugar highs on 3 ft long pixie sticks and make left hand turns. I would do the hokie pokie and stick my left hand in, I would try my hand at limbo ( I was awful). I'm sure my mom would disagree but I never remember an unhappy experience there.

Another of my favorite things was going through the JC Penny catalog at Christmas to make my wish lists? I'm a bit out of touch with mail order catalogs these days but do these still even exist? I mean don't get me wrong there's no way I'd trade in the Internet for a 700 page paper weight, but there was something about flipping through all those pages and dreaming/wishing/imagining what would find it's way under the Christmas tree. I guess Charlotte will use Amazon wish lists?

Lastly I turn to the subject of music. Charlotte will never have the need to buy a physical album. I still remember my first CD (and I'm sure some of you reading this remember your first cassette tape, 8 track or vinyl record): Nirvana - In Utero. Amazing album to this day. For hours and hours I would listen to the same songs again and again. But with Napster, Itunes and the plethora of digital music out there today why would you buy an entire album when you can simply download the tracks you like to your hand held device? On the upside she won't have to invest in the trapper-keeper style CD cases.

My point is things are different now. Some for the better, some for the worse. Raising a kid scares me a bit. Raising a kid in this world where so much of our lives is public (FB, Twitter, etc)? Terrifies me. But, we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

Don't get me wrong, I love technology, and I'm excited for Charlotte to grow up surrounded by so much innovation. BUT, there's something to be said for the world that we grew up in too. I hope that I can show her a bit of that world through our eyes. .

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Lawrence Reunion

10 years ago I walked into into a restaurant looking for a job that would pay my rent in college. I walked out with a husband and some of the best friends I've ever had.
This past weekend some of us were able to get together again. But as I looked around our table at dinner I had to smile thinking about how our lives have changed and everything we have been through. 10 years later we have three new additions to our family: Kate, Lexie and Charlotte. Three of the most beautiful girls I have ever had the pleasure of meeting.
Today we live across multiple states so it's not as easy to get together as it used to be. But I feel that we've done a good job of making sure we meet up at least a couple times each year. I have no doubt that this will always be the case. Good friends truly are hard to find. I can only hope that our children become as close as we are. I love you guys! See everyone in September!

New Friends

Old Friends

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Confessions of a first time Mom: I'm Afraid of the Dark

This isn’t something I’m proud of. Nor is this something that I believe I need professional help to curb (although check back in about 2 months so that I can confirm)
It's not a there'smonstersundermybed kind of fear, but what I would like to believe is a more grown up, mature fear if that’s possible. You see, during the day Charlotte is pretty much within arms reach of me at all times. In her swing, in my arms, hanging out with dad, in her pack ‘n play napping, etc. I can just occasionally glance in her direction and make sure she’s doing ok.
At night….I can’t.
So my confession? I’ve occasionally fallen asleep in the nursery even after she’s asleep in her crib. Not so bad you say? Well what if I were to add one small detail: I’ve fallen asleep on the floor. Yes, the floor.
Even better? I've also found my husband doing the same.
Is this normal first time parent behavior? I don't know. But for now I'm telling myself it is.
Sleep Tight.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Letter to Charlotte: 2 Months

Dear Charlotte. Today you are two months old. I write you this letter so that one day you may look back on this time and realize how amazing you are. And how much a part of our life you were from the very beginning.
In two short months you’ve changed me forever. This intense feeling of love, a feeling that had someone tried to tell me or describe to me would have fallen miles short of living the real thing.
These eight weeks have gone by so fast. I already find myself wishing for time to slow down. Wishing that I could go back to those first few weeks and get a do-over. Now that we’ve gotten to know each other perhaps it would have been a less stressful time for us both. But then again, aren’t those the things that brought us closer? Those late nights, laughing, crying, worrying? It’s all just a way for us to get to know one another. And thinking back, I wouldn’t trade those moments for the world. The exhaustion, the chaos, every bit of it was worth it.

As I type this now you lay on my chest. Your knees curled under your soft belly, your hands nuzzled up under your body and your head tucked tightly under my chin. I can feel your warmth and your heart beating against me and I realize that this, this indescribable feeling, is what life is about.

I knew you would change our lives. I knew you would be amazing.
What I didn’t realized was just how much you would become a part of my every thought, my every breath. Looking at you now I feel an overwhelming sense of happiness. Life is perfect. I’m madly in love with your dad, we have a beautiful daughter, we’re healthy and have a wonderful family to share it all with. I can only hope that everyone has the chance to feel this way at some point in they’re lives.

In this short time you have taught me more about life and love than I can possibly put into words. Charlotte Jean, I love you to the moon and back.


Monday, March 7, 2011


A testament to how much we have to learn....

We have nieces and nephews, we have friends with babies, we’ve been around babies so of course we knew what a swaddle was and even better we knew how to do it! Yay us!

By the time Charlotte was 5 days old we had gone from intermediate level swaddlers to expert…or beyond that if there’s another level. Or at least Troy was, I still needed about a week to perfect the skill.

But regardless of our awesomeness in the swaddling department we thought that Charlotte was ready to move out of the swaddle at the ripe age of 6 days. Long story short, we were wrong.

At 3am one night after 2 very long nights of her repeatedly waking herself up every 30 minutes ( I thought she was being fussy due to gas) I tried the swaddle. She went from crying/fussy/pissed off to sound asleep in a matter of seconds.

Lesson Learned: Swaddles are like magic and itty bitty babies who’ve been cooped up in an itty bitty womb for 9 months like being wrapped up like a burrito. Don’t try to move them out of it too early – she’ll let you know when she’s ready. Hint: 6 days does not equal “ready”.

So because we’ll be using the swaddle for months not weeks we’ve done a bit of research and discovered a miracle…..the Miracle Blanket that is! Really it should be called the baby-sized-straight-jacket, but I think the focus groups probably set the marketing department straight (pun intended) on that. The key to this piece of fabric you ask? It keeps her arms from escaping so she can’t wake herself up. Genius! They're also testing this in prisons and high schools across the nation....ok, maybe not.

Here’s a pic of the newly acquired str- Miracle Blanket with the most adorable model EVER!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


A few big milestones over the past few days. Only 7 weeks in and I’m already realizing that the old saying “They grow up so fast” couldn’t hold more truth.

The first big thing started Thursday. Charlotte has been on a four hour schedule for about a month now. Pretty consistently she wakes up hungry every four hours. Whether we’re in the car, hanging out with Grandma or sound asleep in the middle of the night. The clock strikes the 4th hour and she’s hungry.
BUT, the last few nights she’s been staying asleep for 5 ½ to 6 ½ hours each night. Because I’m a first time mom and I worry ( A LOT – about everything)I’m actually not getting any extra sleep because I’m up making sure she’s ok since she hasn’t woke up…..give me another week or so and I’m sure I’ll be taking full advantage of the extra couple hours!

The second is a little bittersweet. Charlotte is officially out of “newborn” or “nb” clothes and diapers. Just another testament to how quickly she is growing!

And saving the best for last…..

Charlotte Jean is officially SMILING!!! And no, it’s not just gas. She’s been making steady eye contact these days and with enough baby talk and stimulation she’ll smile at you….as long as she’s not gassy, hungry or coveting a dirty diaper!
Naturally she smiled at Troy first. I don’t blame her – he makes me smile too.
I had to wait a few days to get my first dose of toothless magic. There’s absolutely no way to describe it. It completely melted my heart and made me laugh out loud. Hands down one of the best feelings in the world!

This hat was mine when I was a baby. A big thank you to my mom for having the foresight to save a box of my baby things!!

I love it!