Friday, January 24, 2014

All Things Girl

Dresses, jewelry, hair styling.....she's all girl. Today she wore a snow white dress, with her favorite "rectangle dress" on top. Here she was deciding which necklace went better with this ensemble.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Sleeping Beauty

I just love her to pieces....even the really really really angry pieces.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Letter to Grace: 4 Months

I'm sitting here tonight, knees bent with my feet up on the ottoman. You're firmly planted in my lap. Your head on my knees, and your feet crossed over my belly. Your head is slightly cocked to the side and I can't see your neck behind all of those cheeks. My left hand is on your chest and your hands are tightly wrapped around my thumb and pinkie. I can feel the slight change in the pattern of your breathing as I move to type. 

You're growing. Fast. I'm doing my best to cherish every moment, but I feel I'm failing to some degree. I feel like time is winning. Four months. I keep asking myself how it can possibly already have been four months. I don't have 120 days worth of memories in my mind. I don't remember changing roughly 950 diapers or feeding you every 3-4 hours. That's not to say it's all been a's just that it's gone much too fast. 

I think it's easy as a parent the second time around to fall into the comparison trap. The idea or expectation that the second time around will be much like the first. It's not. The two of you are so different in so many ways, and yet I also see similarities. Beautifully different yet the same.  

You're already you're own person. Stay that way. 

We love you, 

Mama and Dada

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Back to Work - Starting a new chapter

Oh geez. What a week. But we're surviving.
It was supposed to go something like this: Wake up Monday morning, take girls to school, I go to work.Continue same routine for 4 days.

In reality it went:

Monday - temperatures were negative 40 wind chill (not an exaggeration) and Charlotte woke up with a fever so none of us left the house.

Tuesday - Charlotte still has a fever, but still no other symptoms, and it's still -40 out. I go to work and Grace has her first day of school. Charlotte stays home with Dad.

Wednesday - Everyone goes to school and work! Woo hoo!

Thursday - Charlotte's birthday - crazy hectic day/night but lots of smiles that made it all worth it.

Friday - where did the week go?!

It was a bit of a whirlwind and we've definitely got some improving to do on our morning routines, but one week in there are less tears that there were on Sunday night. For me that is.

Looking at this picture as I pull it up now I realize I look tired. I am. This was at the end of the week. Recharging is on top of the weekend agenda.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Letter to Charlotte: 3 Years

I have a theory about babies; about why they are born so small and forgiving. Why they can't process the world the way adults do. My theory is this: The majority of parents know little to nothing about actually being parents. It takes time to figure out. And truth be told, I don't think anyone has it all figured out. But those first couple of years. Those years that you won't remember but we will, those are when we become parents. It gives us a multitude of do overs. A chance to find our footing and to build a foundation that our career as parents will stand upon.

But here we are three years later and it occurs to me that we're at the end of this era in your life. We've now reached a point in your life that you will look back on and possibly remember and to be honest that both terrifies me and excites me. Our trial period is over. This is the real deal. I want you to look back on your life and smile at the memories you have. I want you to remember being a kid.

I struggle these days with the balance between letting you be a kid and expecting you to take on more responsibility. I want you to be silly and funny and imaginative. We spend the majority of our lives behaving the way that society expects us to. Right now I want you to embrace being a kid. I want you to keep running from that make believe lion. I want you to keep "dancing" - arms flailing and hair flying. I want you to wear that Rapunzel dress until all that's left is rags. And while you're doing that I'll keep working on letting you. It's much too easy to get caught up in life...thinking ahead to tomorrow not enjoying today. I'm working on that. Thank you for teaching us.

We love you,

Mama and Dada


This was the first year that Charlotte really understood the whole birthday thing. She had seen all of her friends celebrate birthdays before her and after our first friends birthday party back in August all she wanted to talk about was what kind of cupcakes she wanted at her birthday. Five months later she got them: Pink and purple with sprinkles. Surprised? No, we weren't either.

We contemplated ideas to celebrate and ultimately chose to have a few school friends join us at a local jump house. We rented a room, and the 8 of them bounced, slid and ran for a straight ninety pajamas.

Pizza and cupcakes completed the party, and we sent everyone home with noise makers, balloons and a sugar high. Yes, we are those parents. But you know what? The kids had an amazing time. And that was the goal.

Happy 3rd birthday Charlotte Jean!!!!!